Just Had a Flashback.

I just had a flashback! Woo a private movie showing just for little ol' me. Better than going to the movies any day! Or at least wouldn't that be a great way to look at it? But it isn't better than going to the movies at all.

It takes over, you think that it is happening right there and then. At that moment in time, all logic goes out of the window.

Then the adrenalin starts and I can't breathe. I start to blubber uncontrollably. My two doggies go to another room to get away from me. (sorry dogs) They think they may have done something wrong.

I can't stop crying and can't get my breath but logic starts to take over. I will be okay, but I need to let my dogs know that. 'C'mon dogs' I tell them. 'Group hug!' I sat on the bed and they both jumped up to me. Licking my face and giving me love. I hope they hadn't done any self washing earlier as they licked right in my mouth! I could n't close my mouth either because I was blubbering like a baby

I've just taken a valium and am going now to make a chamomile tea. Sure wish I had some smokey Joe right now, still a normal rolly will have to do and a cup of tea. Hopefully, the valium will kick in shortly.

I'm okay, a bit shaky and nauseous but calming down a bit. I have a visit this morning around 11 from the crisis team to check up on me.

I'm grateful for this forum and the support I am getting from all of you, and the support from the crisis team and the counsellors. And not forgetting that special support and group hug with my Loopy and Carl, thanks kiddo's, I must get them a special treat, they deserve it!

Concernedgal said:

What does it take for a crisis team to come visit? I'd there a number or a website u can go to? Sometimes if i'm aline I start to think about my life and I start to get upset like that too. It all just gets too much sometimes.

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When I was phoning so many different therapy agencies and having assessments with them they told me to call the crisis team. They told me twice and in the end, I called them.

They gave me a local number to call. Are you in the UK?

Here is a link that may help you
https://www.rethink.org/diagnosis-treatment/treatment-and-support/crisis-teams

There is a phone number on the website which is for the 'Advice Team 0300 5000 927

Have a look at the link @Concernedgal as it has a lot of information on the crisis team. You may need to be referred but it also says that you can refer yourself.

Let me know how you get on!

Concernedgal said:

Nope. America

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Oh, then the crisis team wouldn't be any good for you as it is in the UK. Perhaps you could look online for a crisis team or such like that is near you? Or maybe ask your doctor he may know. Or maybe the Samaritans, do you have the Samaritans in the USA, they might know.

Concernedgal said:

Probably not. Never heard of the Samaritans.

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Wow! so the Samaritans are only in the UK, I would have thought they would have been in the USA too as I thought they were a Christian body. Taking their name from the biblical good samaritan.

I've just googled it @Concernedgal and you do have the samaritans in the USA, this means there will be a branch near you. You can contact them and they could help you.

Here is a link to the samaritans in the USA.

http://samaritansusa.org/

Let me know how you get on @Concernedgal they are supposed to be very good and very understanding. I hope they are of a great help to you!