What do you do to try to relax?If you can that is

[XmasCarol52]

That is what I say why must it be such a task for us to do anything?When other people probably dont even worry about going out.It seems so darn easy for them,we have to fight with ourselves just to get out I know I do.It is nice to hear people say they are proud of me,but we shouldnt have to feel like we need approval,as my mailman says our brains are damaged .Mine is I know that for sure lol

 

[Concernedgal]

What you say makes sense. Living a simple anxiety free life shouldn't be a battle or an achievement. We should just be able to do it. All I want to be is the person I was at 16 . Carefree and outgoing. Is that really too much to ask for any of us?

 

[XmasCarol52]

I know the feeling it is like we have this little child inside of us that is just begging to get out.You know when I have those yelling spells,I sound like a different person like i feel there is a demon inside of me even the one friend i do have said it sounded demonic.now that is scary..

 

[janemariesayed]

Good luck for next week @XmasCarol52 I am so pleased that your son is going with you. He will give you the support that you need and make you feel better. Fingers crossed it all goes well for you. I had a call from the specialist therapist for abuse and they started to give me directions on how to get there. There are about three or four bus changes in areas that I don't know. That means I have to ask the driver and I've seen it before, everyone on the bus listens and I feel absolutely stupid and embarrassed. I cracked up and told them woah hold on, that is too much for me. I'm feeling anxious and I haven't even left the house yet! The lady decided that I should go and sort out my agoraphobia beforehand so I can then go and visit them and get my specialist therapy. I was vexed and don't know what to do. I asked her to call the first place back on my behalf so they could sort me out with a counsellor for agoraphobia and I'm still waiting for that call. it is so frustrating. I feel like I am in a vicious circle, a catch 22 situation. I need therapy to get over agoraphobia, but I can't get therapy because of my agoraphobia. I'm thinking that I should go back to the place near to me that was easy to get to and talk with them about it.

How quaint that you have something to look forward to on your trip to the doctor. Having some Dunkin Donuts will be like a reward for you. Enjoy! And have a choccy and nut one for me!

 

[janemariesayed]

What you say makes sense. Living a simple anxiety free life shouldn't be a battle or an achievement. We should just be able to do it. All I want to be is the person I was at 16 . Carefree and outgoing. Is that really too much to ask for any of us?

I've been depressed all my life and struggled with anxiety all along. It has been better at times, but each time it has seemed to be better, it has shown that it is just the same as normal. I think that everything is okay then something happens to rock the boat. Now at my age, I realise that my dearest dreams will never come true. At least not in this life. Thankfully believing in reincarnation has given me hope. For all the years that I have left in this life, I can spend raising my vibrations and sorting my head out.

I can get a normal day to day job for example. I always put my all into work which I don't mind. I turn up early, never leave till the work is finished and very rarely go sick. I do my job well and work fast and efficient. But although that is great at first, after a while I start to find that the other workers don't like it. Then I am subject to bullying. My answer is to lash out, but I don't as if I did, I would not stop so I stop myself. I can never think of words quick enough either. I've been bullied by old ladies, three of them in one job. I would go home in tears most days. What was I supposed to do? I could never hit an old lady or even answer them back.

This problem stems from my ex-wicked-step-mother and how she treated me. So it is the specialist abuse therapy that will ultimately help me to deal with those kind of people. I do find life a struggle. It is a daily battle, sometimes, just to stay in the life and hope for help.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Good luck for next week @XmasCarol52 I am so pleased that your son is going with you. He will give you the support that you need and make you feel better. Fingers crossed it all goes well for you. I had a call from the specialist therapist for abuse and they started to give me directions on how to get there. There are about three or four bus changes in areas that I don't know. That means I have to ask the driver and I've seen it before, everyone on the bus listens and I feel absolutely stupid and embarrassed. I cracked up and told them woah hold on, that is too much for me. I'm feeling anxious and I haven't even left the house yet! The lady decided that I should go and sort out my agoraphobia beforehand so I can then go and visit them and get my specialist therapy. I was vexed and don't know what to do. I asked her to call the first place back on my behalf so they could sort me out with a counsellor for agoraphobia and I'm still waiting for that call. it is so frustrating. I feel like I am in a vicious circle, a catch 22 situation. I need therapy to get over agoraphobia, but I can't get therapy because of my agoraphobia. I'm thinking that I should go back to the place near to me that was easy to get to and talk with them about it.

How quaint that you have something to look forward to on your trip to the doctor. Having some Dunkin Donuts will be like a reward for you. Enjoy! And have a choccy and nut one for me!

Hi I dont know what is going to happen now it is suppose to snow my son will go out in it ,just that i have no shoes at all which will fit because of my feet always being swollen I am sorry the way your wicked step mother treated you mine wasnt any better she nearly poked my eye out once by wrestling me t the bed and using her stupid penicl,she still abuses me all the time with her mouth ,you have to do what she want otherwise she will get very nasty ,she loves to dominate people and when she cannot watch out. She still treats me like I am a 2 year old,Even my sons says she thinks i am still two...

 

[Concernedgal]

I've been depressed all my life and struggled with anxiety all along. It has been better at times, but each time it has seemed to be better, it has shown that it is just the same as normal. I think that everything is okay then something happens to rock the boat. Now at my age, I realise that my dearest dreams will never come true. At least not in this life. Thankfully believing in reincarnation has given me hope. For all the years that I have left in this life, I can spend raising my vibrations and sorting my head out.

I can get a normal day to day job for example. I always put my all into work which I don't mind. I turn up early, never leave till the work is finished and very rarely go sick. I do my job well and work fast and efficient. But although that is great at first, after a while I start to find that the other workers don't like it. Then I am subject to bullying. My answer is to lash out, but I don't as if I did, I would not stop so I stop myself. I can never think of words quick enough either. I've been bullied by old ladies, three of them in one job. I would go home in tears most days. What was I supposed to do? I could never hit an old lady or even answer them back.

This problem stems from my ex-wicked-step-mother and how she treated me. So it is the specialist abuse therapy that will ultimately help me to deal with those kind of people. I do find life a struggle. It is a daily battle, sometimes, just to stay in the life and hope for help.

I hope for sanity. I can thankfully hold down a job. Alot of people I kow that suffer the same condition as I , cannot. Apparently I suffer bipolar depression so when i'm up. .. i'm way up. Feeling awesome. But, when i'm down... i'm damn near suicidal. I'm so serious when I say that too. When I feel the way I do when i'm on my down phase. I truly could kill myself during those moments the thoughts ate there. I told my husband d this . He looked at me so weird. Then he called me selfish. And said that I was put on this earth by God and how dare I question that.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Oh dear God your husband acts as though this is your fault when we both know it isn't.I do have bipolar and I Can certainly understand how you feel because when i start to lose it I feel like killing myself I even think of ways of doing it.What am I going to use a plastic knife.I am so tempted to jump out of my window but it is about only three ft from the ground,When i yell I am also crying and shaking,Crying because I am wondering why am I like this sometimes I feel like God is punishing me,,That is what this mental illness feels like some kind of punishment ..Sometimes I wish I was never born.More snow coming doesn't help and on the day I am suppose to see my shrink and snow tomorrow too.JUst when you think spring is coming,We have to set out clocks this weekend you know spring ahead,May I asks why does your husband think you are selfish,?I don't see any signs of that from you at all,Is it because he isn't getting any attention He doesn't respect you just like my mother doesn't respect me.. Well at least you got me for a friend .I will always be here for you.

 

[Concernedgal]

Thank you Carol. I'm always here for you too. My husband called me selfish because I would end my suffering but, I would be gone and he would suffer. I would like to think that anyway. You mention "disrespect" . I feel as though my self esteem is none existent. It's funny how my self esteem took a nose dive months after we got together huh? He never hit me or anything like that but, his words are awful. But, there are others times when he treats me good as gold. To be honest with you. .. I think he's also bipolar. I wouldn't doubt . I know he's mentally ill. What do you think?

 

[XmasCarol52]

I cant say for sure about your husband but he has something,verbal abuse is just as bad as physical abuse I should know,ughThank God he never hurt you by hitting you.Men why do they always have to act like jerks??? Some pix maybe these will cheer you up some

 

[Concernedgal]

I've told him multiple times that if he didn't stop then I would leave. What i'm thinking is that he has depression. Some are sad, and then there are some that are sad and mad..

 

[XmasCarol52]

I just yelled at my mom because I am so scared of that snow storm coming the day I am suppose to go to the doctor she told me not to think about it,she says I worry to much she said she understands no she does not.I had to go and explain to her again that it part of my disorder fear and worrying ,I am so sick and tired of her put downs,Recently I just decided that I was going to do my grocery shopping online instead of having a friend do it,she had a fit as if it is any of her business,this guy was not getting me what I wanted and he complains I dont give him enough money.He does my clothes to I give him plenty so now he will only have to do my clothes he said that works for me so that means apparently he didnt want to do it anyway he also does my moms laundry ,and i pay him for that to,he use to be my daughters fiance,Believe me I also decided to go online and shop and i usually get my stuff the next day so now i will not have to wait anywhere to 7-10 days for it,i just ordered yesterday ad i got all of it today,Jet is where i shop a very good website sure the prices can be high but if you spenf 35 dollars u get free shipping and I can easily spend that much and i know iwill get what i want and I also wanted to prove to myself that I could shop without the help of anyone...