The good Ole days.

[Concernedgal]

I do however, I seem to be less effective than it used to be. Hope i'm not developing a tolerance for it.

 

[JCP]

So many posts lol. Edit: they've been deleted now.

But yeah if it's gone down in effectiveness your almost certainly gaining a tolerance. Maybe you just need to up the dose a little and it will become effective again?

 

[JCP]

Out of interest have you ever heard of/tried Kava or Kratom? They both work really well my anxiety.

 

[Concernedgal]

No I have not. Isn't Kratom a natural pain killer or something? I've only heard of it.

 

[Zeesi]

It's kind of strange for me, these days I don't have as much anxiety as I used to have when I was growing up, but I still have it.
Back then, I seemed to always be anxious about something, although I had bouts of extreme calm and self-control. These days, I feel more centered, calmer, but I still feel anxious about certain things that are going on in my life. When I was younger, I really didn't have anything to feel anxious over, but felt that way anyway.
Hopefully I'm making sense here. I think I need a nap, I'm starting to get a bit loopy.

 

[Zeesi]

Exactly. Now your body and your mind knows what panic and anxiety is. So now your main "mission " is to avoid them at all cost. It becomes your life mission. You avoid potentially stressful situations at the fear of another attack. But, the bitch of it is, is that there's really nothing you can do. They come at random and for no good reason. I hate it when they come while i'm a work. So inconvenient. I've had an ambulance come at my job because I couldn't control my panic. Now that's embarrassing.

Uh oh, that is embarrassing. I remember having a panic attack out on a field trip as a young Campfire Girl.
The leader (and parent of one of the girls) decided to deal with my attack by slapping me hard across the face, in front of everyone, like 20 people. I was humiliated. Can't blame her I guess, we were out in the middle of nowhere, and cell phones didn't exist yet.

 

[Concernedgal]

Girl. She slapped you? Wow. I would of be mortified. What you you think was the reason for the panic attack? If your anything like me ... there doesn't need to be a reason. Lol

 

[Zeesi]

Girl. She slapped you? Wow. I would of be mortified. What you you think was the reason for the panic attack? If your anything like me ... there doesn't need to be a reason. Lol

Yes girl, she slapped me. Okay, don't laugh, but I began to panic because we were out camping, and there was a group of cows grazing close by. Accompanying these cows, was a bull.
The cow owner (I guess you'd call it) sounded the bell for them to come back in from the field. They began to gallop home, I was convinced that the bull was going to be able to gallop over and get me. All the other Campfire Girls seemed fine, but I was freaking out and panicking, screaming, losing it.

Then, slap. . . . . . . . .

This was towards the beginning of the trip. Mortified.

I went to the same school with most of these campfire girls. Walking along the trails, single file line, the rest of the trip with my head down, just humiliated.

Sometimes I don't need a reason to go there, either, but I try to be calmer these days.

I was taking Lorazepam for awhile, which helped me a whole lot, especially when I stopped smoking truckloads of marijuana.
I probably need to get back on that Lorazepam, it worked well for me, but the Doctor that was giving it to me wanted me to have psych evaluations done or something like that.

I'm like, 'Mrs. Doctor, hunny, I'm good; just give me the meds and let me be on my way', but she didn't want to cooperate nor comply, lol.
That was several years ago, and I have yet to try to get more.

 

[Concernedgal]

That's where you and I agree completely. Ativan is the gold standard for me too. That stuff works for me like nothing else does. It's 1 of the only anti anxiety meds that doesn't cause unsavory side effects. I'm trying to get back on it too.

 

[Zeesi]

That's where you and I agree completely. Ativan is the gold standard for me too. That stuff works for me like nothing else does. It's 1 of the only anti anxiety meds that doesn't cause unsavory side effects. I'm trying to get back on it too.

Lol, my son told me last night to get back on those meds, "cause mom, you need them." That kid cracks me up, honestly.
He's all chill and reserved, quiet and composed; and me, I can be like a top that doesn't stop spinning.

Now that we are discussing it here, I'm really giving some serious thought to trying to get back on that medication. I have a new doctor now, and maybe he won't try to have me jump through hoops like my previous doctor did.

 

[Concernedgal]

I know right? I always wondered why they would even think to take away something that works. The first time I was given ativan was when I had my first panic attack when I was 17. They gave it to me intravenously and I was like... wow ! What is this wonderful stuff? Lol. Took the edge right off. And I think your right. You shouldn't have to jump through hoops to get the help you need.