Terrified about having to change psych center

[gamecockgirl971]

Long story short, I have a condition called gastroparesis (stomach paralyzes) which has caused me to lose two jobs and basically be disabled. I also have OCD, GAD, panic attacks, and depression and have been going to the same psych center for 8 years now. I see a nurse practitioner, who is under the guidance of a psychiatrist there.
My cousin, a lawyer, who has referred me to another attorney for a disability case, basically gave me a form that he needed the actual physiciatrist to fill out and wants me to stop seeing the person I've been seeing 8 years and start seeing an actual psych. In addition, their office doesn't do disability forms, just submits mental health records. My counselor will also be doing the same. I am so afraid this attorney is going to tell me the same thing.
To give some background, I was placed in a mental hospital for 3days for a nervous breakdown in 2012 and suicidal thoughts for 11 days later that year. My uncle committed suicide in 2010, and my maternal grandmother had a nervous breakdown long before I was born, and basically abused sleeping pills by doctor shopping and almost OD'd on them when I was 15 (although I'm not sure her mental state was well enough that she even knew she was abusing the pills-she used to sleep pretty much day and night and would tell my sister to turn off the radio-that wasn't playing, while she was trying to take one of her naps).
I'm not sure it would be in my best interest mentally to switch psych practices right now-because my physical condition has gotten so bad, I can't live alone and have had to move back in with my parents, I've lost a lot of friends due to this, and I'm physically sick almost constantly.
I'm sorry this is so long. I just feel like my world has been pulled out from under me, and I have so much stress on me, and I'm not sure this is a good or even safe time to switch psych practices.


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[Claraviolet]

I know the feeling of getting to a new environment, leaving the one that you know for years. It's not simple and half of the time, you would feel like just leaving and return to your previous, familiar place. People always say that, you would get used to it but I never did. Even now, I would love to go back to my state and be there doing a normal job, but that's not possible at this point.

So, yeah I know what you are feeling. I know that physical sickness, sleeplessness, whatnot. I don't have any solid advice for you, but just explain what you are feeling to your cousin, or to your parents. Try to make them understand your feelings, thoughts..everything.
May be they will suggest you something useful.Sorry I couldn't come up with anything better than this.

 

[gamecockgirl971]

I know the feeling of getting to a new environment, leaving the one that you know for years. It's not simple and half of the time, you would feel like just leaving and return to your previous, familiar place. People always say that, you would get used to it but I never did. Even now, I would love to go back to my state and be there doing a normal job, but that's not possible at this point.

So, yeah I know what you are feeling. I know that physical sickness, sleeplessness, whatnot. I don't have any solid advice for you, but just explain what you are feeling to your cousin, or to your parents. Try to make them understand your feelings, thoughts..everything.
May be they will suggest you something useful.Sorry I couldn't come up with anything better than this.

It's okay. I appreciate your listening and answering. I told my mom tonight I was afraid of having to go back in the hospital if I had to switch psychs, especially with all I was going through right now. She agreed it probably wouldn't be good for me, but we needed to see what he said.
Thanks for listening. I didn't mean to write a book. I'll try to explain it to the lawyer if he brings it up, too. Thanks again for your advise and for listening.


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