Seasonal Anxieties and phobias

[XmasCarol52]

Does it make you feel happier when you are singing? I don't often get in the mood for singing but when I do and I sing, it makes me feel that all my anxieties have gone away.

I love to sing when i was sitting outside and one of my neighbors loved it,nice to know my voice hasnt scared anyone yet.lol

 

[janemariesayed]

Your post made me think that if we are feeling low, then singing might just give us that little, or big lift. Remember when Haiti had that awful earthquake? They all started singing their hearts out. It must have made them feel better at that time when they were going through so much bereavement and loss. Not being a great music lover I don't use it to benefit myself. If it helps to make you feel better, I wouldn't worry about what anyone else thinks, I would just carry on singing and making myself feel better.

 

[XmasCarol52]

It does so far they havent complained about my singing they did one time go and complain because i was gagging and coughing in the middle of the night well as i told my land lady i was choking on some food so what if i asked god to help me,it worked,I am surprised they don't complain about excuse my english breaking wind.Some days I get so mad I want to go outside and pull my pants down and moon them or let one rip, Hey if people around here are going ti stick there nose up other peoples business and mine why not Word of warning they want a full moon they will get a very large one lol.I am a joker too, Hey it makes me feel good to laugh and to make others laugh as well. I have always loved music but please no rap,hard rock or opera ugh awful.

 

[XmasCarol52]

it should say in but u know what i mean

 

[XmasCarol52]

I do not know if I am the only one but I have very bad weather anxieties,I mean if I know there is a storm coming I get so anxious and it develops into a panic attack ,for instance about 6 years ago when we had that awful hurricane here in Ct we lost power at 3am lucky for me I had a radio and some flash lights but we were without power for over a week more like close to two weeks.It is very hard to live on just a radio,the woman would go outside to talk but I choose not to,didnt like them all that much but that is besides the point.I do not know how they managed in the olden days without any power but it is so scary for me,I do have a generator now but even that always doesn't kick in right,we cannot even use our stoves if the power goes out Ac either.I dont really use my stove anyway I just use my microwave most of the time,now for two weeks before the storm was coming I was feeling so anxious and the panic attacks were the worst felt like I couldnt breathe I did gag a lot, I do gag so easily.Still whenever I know something is brewing even just the wind I get scared.Funny when my late husband was alive we use to go and sit on our closed in porch to watch the lightening it scared me some but I was not afraid because i had him with me but now it is so awful..

 

[janemariesayed]

It's not surprising that you get anxious when bad weather is due after what happened in the last hurricane. It also seems that some of it can remind you of your late husband. When the bad weather comes, try to relax. It hasn't hurt you, and hopefully, never will. Try not to think about it. If you get thunder and lightening, perhaps it may be nice if you still went and sat by the window to watch out for the lightening. Your late husband obviously saw the beauty in it and liked to sit and watch it with you. If you sat there with him in mind, you may just recall some lovely memory.

I don't know how you, or anyone would cope with no electric power for so long. Sure you can have candles, but I wouldn't know how to get my food hot. I suppose to invest in a little camping gas cooker.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Thank u dont laugh but most of the time what i do is lay down and pull the cover over my face it always seems like the storms hit at night,just last week had a a very bad wind storm even that scared me because if we lose power even when the generator works some things still don't work like my pc ... Not having power was awful i just dreaded the nighttime and what made it so worse was it was only about a month after I fist moved in here then I lost a close friend didn't even know she had passed I just looked up her name on the computer there she was in the obituaries,and I kept calling her to after the storm to see if she was okay and she would never call back i wonder why,She liv ed in a different town.guess her daughter didn t want to tell me maybe she thought I would be upset I was more like in shock.. We lost power at exactly 3am ugh,i was sitting at my table eating something in the old units we had no generators .i ate like cold cereal and sandwich meat cookies stuff like that bread,then about a couple of years later we were hit with a very bad snowstorm in October yes October guess what we lost power again for about three days one of the woman here where i lived was still mad at the first time we lost power because i live in senior housing and there are people who need oxygen and stuff,i dont although sometimes i think i do.lol because the company wasnt in any rush to help us out .So when we had the snow storm she made a complaint to make sure that us living here were takng care of first,now i cannot stomach her,she is related to our land lady and noisy and loves to gossip I am sorry but I dont do that kind of thing i hate gossip because it only gets you into trouble needless to say we did get our power back faster the second time When i goes off now it takes forever for the generator to go on so naturally I get scared it isnt working I kind of had a feeling it went out a couple of weeks ago because we had that huge snowstorm over a foot and now it is gone.I have a friend who is ill so I miss her I wish i could go and take care of her if i could i would but she doesn't want me too,she knows of my illness and she does'nt want to upset me,I told her she wouldn't u know one thing when someone is hurting or sick I am always there for them and guess what my anxieties never show up it is like I am so occupied with them I am not concentrating on my anxieties does that make any sense to you???I love helping people it really makes me feel good about myself and inside whenever I can. Guess I will say good night for now.Thanks for listening OH ya no candles just flashlights,even they werent to strong

 

[XmasCarol52]

Whew so I made it through yesterday but not without a few shouting matches,every time something goes wrong with my computer I totally lose it.I get nervous because I do depend on my computer for everything from drawing email and even surveys and of course this site. I love all you guys .Stay well and I am thinking about all of you,I do know how hard it is for us to even wake up in the morning I worry from the time I wake up until the time I go to bed and it turned out we were spared yesterday we had mostly rain and if we had four inches that was something up in Western Ct they had about a foot to 20 inches of snow we were suppose to have a foot thank God we didn't. I was so anxious because I just didnt know what to expect and of course I get the worse case of anticipatory anxieties.Always worried something bad is about to happen way before it happens,and of course I am not suppose to cry or show my emotions because it isn't right according to my mom oh yes she use to tell me not to cry in front of my children because it wasn't good for them to see me crying ,how do u suppose I hold back my crying? You can't even now I have to fight back my tears sometimes so my friends don't see me crying.It is not an easy thing to do.Anyway so glad the storm is over and yes my mother was yelling at me to because I was afraid of this storm her exact words were do not even think about it when I try to tell her i cannot help it she just said yes u can. I explained to her it is part of my anxieties ,care to guess what her exact words were,well then u have to get over it, if I hear that one more time I am going to scream we just cannot get over it.