Occasional Ramblings of a Healing Mind 913

[Honeycomb913]

Friday September 16, 2016


All my days I been looking at life through a lens of fear. I'm realizing now that the root of all my problems have been the way I've perceived things. My core beliefs have been weeds in the garden of my mind for years. Seeds planted by relatives, by caretakers, by friends, strangers, and self. For the longest time I walked around with a burden in my heart and an aching in my spirit wondering 'What the heck is wrong with me?' Why is life so hard for me? Why does breathing seem so difficult? Why are my thoughts so heavy? What is this weight barreling down on my shoulders? Why is contentment and peace of mind so elusive?


All my life, everyday, there's always been some invisible struggle.. The sky could be clear but still I struggle. The road could be smooth but still I struggle. Why? Why does it seem like there's peace everywhere but inside me? Why does everyone around me seem to have a better grip on themselves? Am I missing something, is there something I don't innerstand? Is it just me who missed that memo?


Turns out it's not just me but indeed there was something I was missing. I been walking around with poison in my system for ages.


Every thought that kills me I'm going to change. Because I see, As Man thinks so he shall be.


Negative beliefs are poisonous to the soul, and the worst kind of death that kills you slowly. And you get to watch yourself deteriorate. But I'm changing now and I'm going to heal. I'm pulling out the weeds and I'm planting good seeds.


I'm sucking all the poison out and I'm gunna breathe again and I'm going to remember what it's like to feel the sunshine. No more pain.


There's Nothing to be afraid of.

 

[Ashley0323]

I think this is a very common thing for me. I have notice that when I am talking to someone, I drift off in the convo, and move on to other topics, then eventually circle around to my original topic. When I do this, it feels like it takes forever for me to get done talking and I wonder if it becomes annoying for the listener.

 

[pwarbi]

I think this is a very common thing for me. I have notice that when I am talking to someone, I drift off in the convo, and move on to other topics, then eventually circle around to my original topic. When I do this, it feels like it takes forever for me to get done talking and I wonder if it becomes annoying for the listener.

People losing focus and concentration on hat they are doing or saying, or even listening to and watching are tell tale signs of depression and anxiety I have been told in the past. Even though we might feel OK in ourselves, our mind as other things it's thinking about and so we then have a tendency to switch off and sometimes that can happen without us even knowing it. when you look at anxiety and depression and the list of symptoms, you can be surprised at the number of things that you do yourself that are on thee and you didn't even know about and it certainly opened my eyes.

 

[Surrender]

@Honeycomb913 thanks for sharing, I needed to hear that. I have been like that in the past and feel I'm probably allowing negative thoughts to come in again. It is absolutely true we are what we think, and we poison ourselves with our thoughts. Sometimes it just takes a reminder to realize we are doing it to ourselves, and snap out of believing we are doomed victims.

 

[Honeycomb913]

Of course @Surrender , I'm so glad I was able to help you out. Yea I know exactly what it's like to let the negative thoughts invade the mind. For a very long time I was under the impression that I was at the mercy of my brain and everything that it throws at me but it took a lot of struggle and realization to see that I'm the one in control and that I always had the power I just somehow got the belief that I wasn't and it all traced back to my beliefs. Keep going, look for yourself and learn who you are