Claire Andrea
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It's difficult to explain. It's been many years since music, in general, any kind of music, causes me certain reactions. I've been able to quit smoking or stop drinking, but I can't stop listening to music even though I know it might be feeding my anxiety.
When I start feeling desperate which is every time in the day in which I am left alone, I take my headphones and play music and start imagining things that might never really happen in real life. I feel the need to jump or move, and if I don't do this I feel bad, but I also do feel bad for doing this for I can't stop. Hours and hours spent in this strange habit; sometimes, I even need to lock myself in the bathroom in order to listen to it and jump or move without people staring strange at me.
I mentioned this once to my teraphist, but it seems she does not consider it important. Is this a common practice in life? To go around hiding to jump and listen to music that helps you to imagine your life as you wish it was? I can react to any kind of music rock, pop, country, even classical, when I listen to it, it's as if through the headphones thousands of possibilities, unreal moments, appear in my head, and I feel satisfied. But when I can't do this, or when I'm forced to stop in order to continue with life everything is so depressing due to the contrast within real and unreal. I write, I Paint, I run, and still I can't quit this habit.
Can someone please tell me how to quit this or if it is normal?
When I start feeling desperate which is every time in the day in which I am left alone, I take my headphones and play music and start imagining things that might never really happen in real life. I feel the need to jump or move, and if I don't do this I feel bad, but I also do feel bad for doing this for I can't stop. Hours and hours spent in this strange habit; sometimes, I even need to lock myself in the bathroom in order to listen to it and jump or move without people staring strange at me.
I mentioned this once to my teraphist, but it seems she does not consider it important. Is this a common practice in life? To go around hiding to jump and listen to music that helps you to imagine your life as you wish it was? I can react to any kind of music rock, pop, country, even classical, when I listen to it, it's as if through the headphones thousands of possibilities, unreal moments, appear in my head, and I feel satisfied. But when I can't do this, or when I'm forced to stop in order to continue with life everything is so depressing due to the contrast within real and unreal. I write, I Paint, I run, and still I can't quit this habit.
Can someone please tell me how to quit this or if it is normal?
