I guess I am struggling a bit right now with anxiety and depression creeping back into my life. First off the weather changed, and it set me off into sweatsuit mode, which is not the best for me as I begin to stop caring about my appearance. But also there are a number of balls in the air right now, major unresolved things that are in process, that could go down either good or bad. I am trying to remember that just because there is uncertainty in the air, does not mean there will be a negative outcome. I think I am doing ok trying not to worry and think about negatives, but still just the unresolved uncertainty is truly making me jittery.
I am trying to pray, but finding it hard to get past my jitters to get into a calm, meaningful connection. I am reading Psalm 91 to try and regain my calm. But it is almost like when I do relax and regain some peace, a new fiery arrow comes flying at me from left field. It is crazy. Sometimes I just think this is all a test, to teach me to rely on Him and not my own strength.
I am trying to pray, but finding it hard to get past my jitters to get into a calm, meaningful connection. I am reading Psalm 91 to try and regain my calm. But it is almost like when I do relax and regain some peace, a new fiery arrow comes flying at me from left field. It is crazy. Sometimes I just think this is all a test, to teach me to rely on Him and not my own strength.
